Last night I shared a late night breakfast (Brinner) with friends. This was only the third time I had ever met one of the guys that joined us (The second time he met me, was the time he payed me the compliment that he admired that I own myself) and the first time I had ever had a real conversation with him. I sat across from this man who had these amazing things to say. Things that rocked my core. He said things with such magic. His eyes would at times wet glossy as if you could tell that at that moment he was having a heartfelt feeling about the things he would talk about. He had so much passion. So much sorrow. So much energy. It has been a long time that I've sat across from a person like this. He talked to you. Into your eyes and with meaning. He was no accident to my life last night.
He said to me...
"Some people are led my their brains. Some people are led by their spirit. The brain will always judge. The spirit never does."
Now, I'm not a religious person but I am a spiritual one, so this quote was so interesting to me and struck a cord in my spirit. We got into the topic that people like us are not ruled my our brains. Of course, we have them, but our spirit usually drives us. For example, a person who is led my their brain will think "I can't get close to you. If I know it's not going to work out why would I get close? It's not going to go anywhere." People get into their own heads too much. They think too too much. Someone like me, who is led by my soul thinks "I don't care if it's not forever. Most things are not. I just want to love this person NOW. Lets go with it and enjoy the ride. Kiss me."
The brain will always have restrictions, and the spirit doesn't even know that word. Sure, the person with the brain might have been smart enough to protect themselves from heartache and therefor that's why they have those brainy thoughts. While the soulful person will most likely feel heartache and feel more. That part is not so fun, but it's part of it.
I think it's easy to get caught up in the brain. Some people I feel are just there and never let go enough to experience their spirit. And some of us, including myself, have a hard time staying in the brain because our spirits are running too free and have no rules and just want to be let BE! I'm not saying one way of being led is better than the other. But one does allow for more interesting stories.
A lot of things made sense to me last night. Things came out of my mouth that I had never said. Saying them and hearing them come out of my mouth was emotional. I feel like I'm starting to get it. I told my Best Friend that I felt like this year was a bad year. She had to remind me that it wasn't, in fact it was my best year. This discomfort and confusion and uneasiness I have been feeling is a transition, a shift and even if it's a great amazing thing, I've been very weird over it this year. Mostly because I have never felt this in my life. I'm aware. It's an interesting time for me right now. I'm living.
I surrender to brain at times, but my spirit is very much in the drivers seat. It is on its way, to who knows where. I'm just along for the ride.
"Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans." -John Lennon