Last night I was having a pity party for one. Being emotional and bummed out by the fact that this last year has been full of disappointing dating experience. Then I thought 'That's because you've been spoiled." I never stopped to think that I REALLY have been spoiled. And by spoiled I mean this- I have had some great romances with great guys, fun guys, sweet guys, and lets face it, guys who have adored me. THIS has been hard to find this year.
I'm amazed how much you realize you have taken for granted after you don't have it anymore. Now, I have been dealing with these dating experiences that I swear I have already been through (mostly my fault for dating way bellow my age limit a lot this year) and you seem to really appreciate these guys. The guys who want to be around you, even if it's to tag along with you to the grocery store. The guys who look at you when they share stories with you. The guys who pick you up for dates. The guys who you can tell they feel lucky to have you. The guys who will stop and kiss you, anytime, anywhere, just because. All individual experiences, and I can't really compare them, but it was effortlessly what you see in the picture.
Maybe I had to have this odd year of awkwardness and confusion and heartache so that I could appreciate THIS. Plus, I don't think settling is in my nature. It's in my nature to love. I want it all and I won't apologize for it. It's just how I'm wired. That's just how I roll. I roll deep in the mushy stuff.
I've been a very lucky girl to have been adored like this.
I have been missing THIS.....