Saturday, October 30, 2010

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Creative juices are flowing and trying to decided what I will and will not talk about this late, in bed, with the laptop in hand. Let's see... Oh yes, my dating life. Starting to sound pretty repetitive on my blog, ain't it, folks? Dating is hard, I don't get it Blah Blah Blah. Where's my prince charming?, my dude? Blah Blah Blah. Life is lonely, hard and expensive single Blah Blah Blaaaaaah.

 I'm now just angry about it. I text my friend Mike today to get the juice. I said "The guy that I like, doesn't like me" Why? And what do I do?", then he asked the most mind-boggling question.......

"Is it them or is it you?"

What? What do you mean? This question stuck with me all day. It never dawned on me that it would actually be me? Me? Nah! But wait. Me? Here I thought it was these guys who had all the issues and I'm just sitting here ready and willing to explore these guys, that for some fuuuucked up reason, don't like (perfect) me back.  So, here I am, again, giving up on someone I like and interested in, because it's very clear it's not mutual. Even when I thought it was, I wasn't getting enough of the right signals to desire or want to continue. Maybe it is me. Maybe it's them. Maybe it's all of US. Right timing. Wrong person. Right person. GREAT excuse. 

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  1. Hahahaha! I fucking love you, Babs! Don't feel bad it seems to happen to a lot of beautiful, smart, independent, cool ass chicks out there. Just remember that you're not alone in this cut throat dating world.

    In the mean time. Keep being you. It seems to be working in all of the other aspects of your amazing (and envious) life you have.

    You're blessed with not only being easy on the eyes but you're funny as hell, too. Very rare combo!

    Much love!!!

  2. Very kind of you. Thank you :)

    The other comment that I didn't post was someone saying "maybe it's cuz your (I think they meant you're) a 33 stripper?"

    hahaha! I love when people try and be assholes. Yes, I am 33 and yes I am a stripper. Is this 1955? get over it already. I look 23 and I will dance in my thong if I want to. And NO, I don't think my job has anything to do with it. I have had relationships with very secure Men who don't see that as a threat, who also live in the modern times.
    And next time leave your name :)
    Have some balls if you're going to talk shit, you spineless panty waist chode!

    Again, thank you Anonymous. It's nice to see that people get "it"!!!

  3. LMAO! Fucking awesome. Fuck whoever said. Don't people know that it just shows that people are jealous of you or wish they could have you. FUCK haters. Kill them with your badass ways.

  4. I'm very secure with who I am. I guess people think the truth will hurt me? The sad part, the person who left me that comment knows me. It's probably someone that looks at me in the face and is nice to my face. SO sad!


  5. WAIT! That's bullshit. People are so stupid. First of all, I'm your age and I'm not in you line of work, and dating is hard. If it wasn't your dancing then it would be that you don't have a job, or that your "career" is too important. Always something. You being a dancer might be hard for some Men to deal with BUT the right Man, that knows who YOU are as a person and what's in your heart, and knows this is a choice that you made to take care of you and your boy, will see that as a small obstacle to over come.

    I'm a big fan of you. You inspire me so much, with your free spirit, humor and love for life. You're a very special person Barb.

  6. 1) I have a total girl crush on you.

    2) My mother always says, "It takes two hands to clap."

    3) And Judgy Anon is prolly an obese, part time mormie, inexperienced 23 year old who is jealous you get to do what you want, when you want and will always look better than her doing it.

    4) I'm totally not judgy. And I heart you!

  7. Aww Soma. You rock! Thank you for this. I love me some cool ass people.

    YAAAY! I heart you too, sister!